Down

Sometimes negative thoughts come around. Especially hate the ones that come at night when I’m already tucked into bed, anticipating a good night’s sleep. Plus i have the tendency to think a lot, which makes everything worse cos these thought branch out to lotsa fuckshits. Affecting the supposed timing I am to be asleep.

Just when you think you can sleep it away, you can’t. You go to bed thinking of something, you wake up feeling the same. It’ll haunt you in the next morning. Your focus goes haywire. Even things like people saying ‘Hi’ to me and I’m still in a daze, thought such things only happens in dramas. i get too caught up in the thoughts.

What comes after these are a influx of happy thoughts. But no, i'd chose to push em’ away. It’s like i’d rather think of sad things than happy ones. What the hell is this really?

Funny how movies make sucha huge impact on me sometimes. I let these attack me, I become so, vulnerable.